Just a normal guy...

[ThreesAllowed]

Hello forum,

I've been lurking here for a bit and have decided to start adding to the discussions. I'll start off with an introduction...

I'm a 30yo white male with a peculiar interest in, you guessed it, watching white women getting fucked by black men. I first noticed this in my late teens/early 20s when I saw the cover to a porno called "Big Black Studs, Poor Little White Trash" at the sleaze merchants down the street from my dorm. Instant bone! Shame-facedly, I purchased the vid and raced back to the dorm to explore this dark horizon. Wowee-zowee!

Anyhow, from that point on my fate was sealed. What seemed at first a passing fancy grew in potency in my imagination. I found my thoughts during wank-time always focusing on watching interracial hi-jinks. Not too long after I found myself during sex imagining my partners getting pounded by black men. This evolved over time to imagining my girlfriend comparing my equipment unfavorably to that of her black lovers' and other more humiliating and rough scenarios. Now a decade later, I have totally accepted that this is a paraphilia that is integral to my sexual life and not something that can be or should be wished away.

I have had a couple of girlfriends with whom I have shared these feelings (after much "fantasy" conversations) and surprisingly none of them blanched at the thought, at least at the fantasy level. I've never experienced an interracial threeway or cuckolding, but I did have a girlfriend who sucked off a couple of white guys in front of me. She was way into meeting a black guy to dominate her, but we ended up breaking-up before ever enacting that scenario (now she's married to some skinny white guy, so go figure).

So why am I here? Well, like many other guys in my position, I am looking for that special woman to enjoy this taboo, pornographic and raunchy lifestyle within the confines of a loving and healthy relationship. Now since this fetish is a little more "advanced" than say a foot fetish, I have tried many times on the net to find a suitable partner, rather than risk public ******** by revealing myself to too many of my ex-girlfriends. The trouble is that my experiences online have too often ended in frustration and betrayal because of people misrepresenting their looks and, not surprisingly, gender. However, I am not one to give up easily, so here I am.

I am not just looking for a woman as kinky as I am. I am looking for someone who is intelligent, funny, compassionate, and easy on the eyes. Don't worry, I keep the same standards for me as well. So if there is anyone who would like to hear more from me, please don't hesitate to post here in this thread or PM me. Ask any question and I'll answer as soon as I return.

Your fellow freak,
Josh.

PS- I have a few ideas on how these thoughts first developed in me and would like to talk about the genesis of these thoughts in others.

PPS- Yes, I am a wordy guy. Maybe next time I'll include a Table of Contents and some End Notes!

 

[ThreesAllowed]

86 people have read this without responding?

Oh, painful sting of rejection! Tears.

 

[jawa]

LoL

Hey bro. I'm in the exactly the same boat as you. Had past girlfriends that were into the fantasy but nothing happened. One day though.......

 

[pimpology101]

50% or more of us white guys here are exactly like you and that boat is pretty damn full! LOL

Luckily I have had one past lover do it (twice) but that isn't enough. Carry on and don't give up or lose sight of the goal!

 

[carlmich]

Still another normal guy

Check your private messages for details.

 

[Jan Van Eyck]

Personally I'd keep looking the way you always have. Sexual parallels are important to relationships, but if you start there you may end up with something less exciting then when you finally manage to convince your regular kind of girl to try it out. May others please correct me with different stories.

The way I look at it, who's more exciting to finally nail after the work required to get to that point, the bar skank or the preacher's daughter? Those are extremes, but you get my point.

 

[RoamingWifeAndHerHubby]

Great Handle! Very clever.

Please check your private messages. To discuss possible origins of our predilection (sp?)

 

[lewis]

closing the deal

josh,,,,I am and have been involving in fucking white wivies, and closing the deal is always the hardest part. I am in the processing of getting to fuck this very hot blue eye blonde, but she keeps waiting. She emails me all the time and sent me pictures and want to hear what I will do to her, but she won't close the deal. All us guys have to wait...black and white, I guess its part of the female nature.

 

[jayandkay]

(To step outside the whole fantasy thing for a second)

Find the right woman for you, then talk her around to it this is what most of us have done, my wife sleeps with other men not because they are big or powerful or superior or any of the other rubbish you may read here, she does it because she loves me and knows it turns me on.

I persuade her to go black as often as I can because that is number one for me (not her.)

The sex and fantasising just before and after she meets a guy is probably the best.

Speaking to other "real" couples they are a lot the same. So find a good woman first!!

Right, back to the fantasy. (Sorry if I offended anyone with this diversion into reality.)

 

[Uima]

I have had a couple of girlfriends with whom I have shared these feelings (after much "fantasy" conversations) and surprisingly none of them blanched at the thought, at least at the fantasy level.

You're lucky. I'm hesitant to bring the whole topic up for fear of being branded a weirdo or something. I just don't know how girls would take it.

 

[ThreesAllowed]

Thanks, everybody, for the kind responses. I'll write a couple quick notes now and will get to the PMs later...

Jan Van Eyck:
I think you may have misunderstood me a little bit. By posting here I hope to sift among the various "perverts" and find a woman who shares many of my interests, not just the sexual ones. I figure that by coming here, I can assume a woman will be more or less sexually compatible, and so the trick is to keep talking to them until I find one who can make me laugh and occasionally tell me something I don't know. Sexual proclivity is not my only criterion. This is akin to a cowboy choosing to find a woman at a country-western bar. It increases the chance that they will have something in common (music and clothing taste), providing something to talk about until they discover what other things they share. It does not mean that everyone with a shared interest is the ideal mate.

RoamingWifeandHerHubby:
Thanks for the compliment on my name. I did spend some time trying to come up with a good pun, figuring that it might be more memorable than if I just called myself WhiteCuck2007. Also, I was a big fan of "Three's Company" when I was a kid.

lewis:
It is comforting to hear that even the brothers have to wait sometime! All joking aside, your current situation is one of the things that bugs me about the online dating scene in general, not just in the fetish environment. I've been burned in the past by "women" who keep delaying a face to face meeting. I'm not a pushy guy, but after a certain amount of courtship, I think a public meeting or a phone call is a normal request. If you are jerked around for too long, it makes me think that the other person has something to hide... probably a penis. I'm not saying this is what is going on in your case, but I am now wary of constant delays. A good trick is to ask for a specific pose if "she" is going to send a pic. For instance, have "her" hold up a combination of two household objects, like a vase and a spatula. If she is sincere, I don't think this request would be offensive. If she balks at that, then you have to assume she is a dude or at least not the same woman whose pictures she is sending to you.

JayandKay:
Cute name. I have an ex name Kelly and we used to go by the name "J and K" when sending out invitations and the like. Anyhow, as for your comments... I hear what you are saying and I respect that, but it isn't quite what I am looking for. I understand humoring your mate with a request that doesn't otherwise turn you on. For example my most recent ex loved being on top. I don't mind that position, but it is definitely not something I need for a fulfilling sex life. I did it because it made her happy. With the interracial/cuckolding thing, I think that is a whole different level. I would feel uncomfortable knowing that my girl was doing it just to please me. Maybe I am spending too much time in fantasy-land, but I would like to find that special girl who does it for herself. That is just my take on things. Different strokes for different folks and all that.

uima:
Hey man, don't stress out. There are a few tricks you can employ to test the waters. One is to bring up the topic of porn. If she is receptive to watching it, you are in luck. Start off with mainstream/couples movies and slowly work your way up to the movies that you really enjoy and see how she responds. Another good one is to ask her what her craziest fantasy is. No matter how she responds, just keep reminding her that you want to really turn her on and see her happy. Show her how much that her honesty turns you on. Sex toys are a great help as well. If she doesn't have any, but wants one, take her to a clean sex shop or go shopping online. Point out the ones that are your size and then comment on the bigger ones. Ask her if she is ever curious about how something bigger would feel. If she seems nervous or afraid of hurting your feelings, tell her you just her to feel as best as she can. Sex toys are also good because they can be bridge to group sex, if you use one on her in the ass while you have vaginal intercourse. If she likes it, all you have to do is make an off-hand comment about how much better it would feel if someone else was controlling the fake dong.


Wow. That wasn't quite as short a response as I was planning on! Back to work for now, but if you have sent me a PM I will get back later in the day. Until then, enjoy yourselves, everybody.