Well - rather than continue my earlier thread, I thought it would be better to start a new one.
Sue and I did a lot of talking this weekend and a lot of things came out. At the end of my last post in the other thread I began to feel a bit awkward about how close and comfortable together that she and Brad seem to be now.
I had always put the physical sex and the emotions during that on one side - but the realization that they've showered together and washed each other seems to have brought out some new emotions and feeling in me. Our conversations over the weekend revealed that she's totally opened up to him in ways that both concern me but are - at the same time - absolutely a turn-on.
I don't think I revealed the extent of my arousal to her - but I did express some concerns over her seeming to be very open with him. My concerns became enough for me to bring it up with her after - not only did she say she spends most of her time with him with her naked. That alone said a lot to me in that she's usually a bit reserved but that she feels totally comfortable letting him see all of her - she said she actually, in some ways, can't wait to get undressed with him. But I reallly came unglued when she told me very plainly that she not only showed him how to insert her diaphragm - that she actually let him do it!!!! I swear I felt such a mix of emotions at that moment - I remember how I felt long ago when she showed me that too. To now think that she's that comfortable with him has me feeling almost dizzy from so much to think about.
Before I get all the concerned-replies - when I have more time later, I'll share what she said about my concerns about losing her to him in any way.
But sitting here at work - thinking about them together like that - well, I just had to get it off my chest.
I guess the fact that I am deriving some enjoyment and arousal out of this confirms my acceptance of being a cuckold. I just wouldn't have guessed that it would quite be so mentally/emotionally intense at times.
Sue and I did a lot of talking this weekend and a lot of things came out. At the end of my last post in the other thread I began to feel a bit awkward about how close and comfortable together that she and Brad seem to be now.
I had always put the physical sex and the emotions during that on one side - but the realization that they've showered together and washed each other seems to have brought out some new emotions and feeling in me. Our conversations over the weekend revealed that she's totally opened up to him in ways that both concern me but are - at the same time - absolutely a turn-on.
I don't think I revealed the extent of my arousal to her - but I did express some concerns over her seeming to be very open with him. My concerns became enough for me to bring it up with her after - not only did she say she spends most of her time with him with her naked. That alone said a lot to me in that she's usually a bit reserved but that she feels totally comfortable letting him see all of her - she said she actually, in some ways, can't wait to get undressed with him. But I reallly came unglued when she told me very plainly that she not only showed him how to insert her diaphragm - that she actually let him do it!!!! I swear I felt such a mix of emotions at that moment - I remember how I felt long ago when she showed me that too. To now think that she's that comfortable with him has me feeling almost dizzy from so much to think about.
Before I get all the concerned-replies - when I have more time later, I'll share what she said about my concerns about losing her to him in any way.
But sitting here at work - thinking about them together like that - well, I just had to get it off my chest.
I guess the fact that I am deriving some enjoyment and arousal out of this confirms my acceptance of being a cuckold. I just wouldn't have guessed that it would quite be so mentally/emotionally intense at times.
