this is how we first got into this 'lifestyle"... I had come to the realization that my husband was choosing watching porn and self pleasuring more frequently than he was engaging in sex with me. I felt hurt in many ways, 'not good enough' among many other self defeating thoughts. So I asked him why, why he was more turned on by watching porn than having sex with me and his response was that while he loved me, he was turned on watching women who were 'whores' and I was his wife not a *****.
My initial response was to offer to watch porn with him, allow him to use that as his foreplay/motivation and then allow me to pleasure him and that really turned a corner for us. After a few months of watching more or less the same themed type of porn I just came out and asked him.... Would it turn you on if I did those things or do you just like to watch other women doing it? The idea excited us both as just me asking turned him on enough to turn me over and took me doggie while he said he could probably cum if I blew another guy in front of him.
We both left that as bedroom talk and in addition to watching porn I then began to use a toy and pretend it was another man which did really excite him and made me feel 'wanted' again, there was passion in his desire to take me after that. Then one day I just blurted it out, not in the bedroom, not while discussing sex, I just said to him I want to do it. "Do What" he asked... Suck someone elses dick in front of you.... He shared with me a site called Craigslist, posted a pic of my body with a personal add and within minutes, literally minutes started showing me dick pics of men who responded. I told him I didn't want to pick but I just wanted to do it, one time with no judgement , made him swear not to get mad at me after.
we made arrangements to have an hour or so of free time, I gave him oral before leaving, we drove about 15 minutes away, parked he had me get out and into the back seat, another car pulled up driver side window to his, I couldn't make out all of what the other guy was saying but I could hear my husband really clear. Yes this is for real, rolled down the back window.... look no hands on her head and announce before you cum so I can watch... the car drove off, I heard the engine shut off, the door close, my door open and there was a man who entered our backseat, looked at me, made a comment about my body, then said, do I just pull it out... I nodded and he pulled his pants down just far enough to ****** it and I leaned over
My initial response was to offer to watch porn with him, allow him to use that as his foreplay/motivation and then allow me to pleasure him and that really turned a corner for us. After a few months of watching more or less the same themed type of porn I just came out and asked him.... Would it turn you on if I did those things or do you just like to watch other women doing it? The idea excited us both as just me asking turned him on enough to turn me over and took me doggie while he said he could probably cum if I blew another guy in front of him.
We both left that as bedroom talk and in addition to watching porn I then began to use a toy and pretend it was another man which did really excite him and made me feel 'wanted' again, there was passion in his desire to take me after that. Then one day I just blurted it out, not in the bedroom, not while discussing sex, I just said to him I want to do it. "Do What" he asked... Suck someone elses dick in front of you.... He shared with me a site called Craigslist, posted a pic of my body with a personal add and within minutes, literally minutes started showing me dick pics of men who responded. I told him I didn't want to pick but I just wanted to do it, one time with no judgement , made him swear not to get mad at me after.
we made arrangements to have an hour or so of free time, I gave him oral before leaving, we drove about 15 minutes away, parked he had me get out and into the back seat, another car pulled up driver side window to his, I couldn't make out all of what the other guy was saying but I could hear my husband really clear. Yes this is for real, rolled down the back window.... look no hands on her head and announce before you cum so I can watch... the car drove off, I heard the engine shut off, the door close, my door open and there was a man who entered our backseat, looked at me, made a comment about my body, then said, do I just pull it out... I nodded and he pulled his pants down just far enough to ****** it and I leaned over
