Hi guys,
I have been on this site for awhile now and sharing my girls naughty photos.. after a recent discovery with reverse image searching tool I saw that my girl was posted to several porn/pic sites.. I have gotten most of them taken down but some sites are permanent or you cant report the posts.. anyways this sent me into quite a shock/panic attack to say the least as all it takes is for her to get an urge or just curious about herself and reverse search her nudes then boom.... some of the titles have the word "cuck" too so they wont help my case if I say I got hacked or whatever you know?
Anyways in the moment this was such a shock to me I felt so sick and disgusted with myself to have allowed this to happen.. however I have cut back a lot with showing her off as much and never show her face anymore but the damage is done.. I guess the overwhelming desire to have pervs looking at her clouded myself to think rationally however I've been doing this for awhile now and I cant even get hard to normal porn it always has to be cuck porn or something and this almost every time leads me to show at least 2-3 photos of her in the group chat I am so pathetic I want to really quit this shit... I know its a bit cringe but I have literally bent down on both knees and prayed lol... I don't really know why I'm posting my problems I just really need to get this off my chest has who on earth could I tell this all too...
Another issue is when I am intimate with my woman sometimes I cant get hard and ask her to tell me silly things that I know I shouldn't get her to say... for example "tell me I have a small cock" or "tell me you cheated on me" this once lead her to tell me she wants a big cock to suck and fuck while I get to watch... I don't know where she got that image from maybe porn but it sounded like possibly she has googled "cuck porn" before as I have never told her to say that before.. this has lead me to believe she does in fact want a bigger penis and I am constantly asking for validation about mine and shes always telling me 'im perfect" ect but her saying those words will always stick with me.. shes never been with another guy before so she would not know what a bigger one felt like anyways.. im a respectable 5.5-6 inch penis so its not small but its not big either... non the less this whole fetish thing is starting to affect my 5-6 yea relationship I just want to go back to when id only watch porn to get off 2-3 times a week.. this is getting out of hand now please help me I realy am being genuine when I say this.. this is not just some "cuck story" please don't see this as a troll post, I am really struggling mentally...
PS I have considered going to therapy but out of fear from being judged or questioned too much scares me... I know they cant disclose any information but my overthinking would lead me to believe they would lol
All I'm asking for is no judgement/outside POV to hopefully help me think more clearly...
Anyone who is good with talking about this stuff please reach out.. thank you
I have been on this site for awhile now and sharing my girls naughty photos.. after a recent discovery with reverse image searching tool I saw that my girl was posted to several porn/pic sites.. I have gotten most of them taken down but some sites are permanent or you cant report the posts.. anyways this sent me into quite a shock/panic attack to say the least as all it takes is for her to get an urge or just curious about herself and reverse search her nudes then boom.... some of the titles have the word "cuck" too so they wont help my case if I say I got hacked or whatever you know?
Anyways in the moment this was such a shock to me I felt so sick and disgusted with myself to have allowed this to happen.. however I have cut back a lot with showing her off as much and never show her face anymore but the damage is done.. I guess the overwhelming desire to have pervs looking at her clouded myself to think rationally however I've been doing this for awhile now and I cant even get hard to normal porn it always has to be cuck porn or something and this almost every time leads me to show at least 2-3 photos of her in the group chat I am so pathetic I want to really quit this shit... I know its a bit cringe but I have literally bent down on both knees and prayed lol... I don't really know why I'm posting my problems I just really need to get this off my chest has who on earth could I tell this all too...
Another issue is when I am intimate with my woman sometimes I cant get hard and ask her to tell me silly things that I know I shouldn't get her to say... for example "tell me I have a small cock" or "tell me you cheated on me" this once lead her to tell me she wants a big cock to suck and fuck while I get to watch... I don't know where she got that image from maybe porn but it sounded like possibly she has googled "cuck porn" before as I have never told her to say that before.. this has lead me to believe she does in fact want a bigger penis and I am constantly asking for validation about mine and shes always telling me 'im perfect" ect but her saying those words will always stick with me.. shes never been with another guy before so she would not know what a bigger one felt like anyways.. im a respectable 5.5-6 inch penis so its not small but its not big either... non the less this whole fetish thing is starting to affect my 5-6 yea relationship I just want to go back to when id only watch porn to get off 2-3 times a week.. this is getting out of hand now please help me I realy am being genuine when I say this.. this is not just some "cuck story" please don't see this as a troll post, I am really struggling mentally...
PS I have considered going to therapy but out of fear from being judged or questioned too much scares me... I know they cant disclose any information but my overthinking would lead me to believe they would lol
All I'm asking for is no judgement/outside POV to hopefully help me think more clearly...
Anyone who is good with talking about this stuff please reach out.. thank you