My Mistress was gone most of one week recently. She was spending time with someone other than me. The first night she was only gone a few hours. I found I enjoyed the thought of her going to meet someone new without me. I did miss her but I was enjoying the fact she was using her freedom.
The second night she was with her new friend was a night we regularly meet with other friends at a local pub. I went there alone and met with our friends until Mistress showed up. When she did she brought her friend and sat with her back turned to me, like I was not even there. Her focus was on her new friend. I was excited to see her with someone else in front of our friends and with the way she was humiliating me in front of them.
I left before Mistress left and went home alone. My head was buzzing almost in subspace. When Mistress did come home she had little to say except she enjoyed being out. That night I was edged and denied release. I was allowed to make her cum with my mouth. She came harder than usual. I knew she was not thinking about me. It made me feel like the sub cuck I am, humiliated yet turned on.
On Friday night she went out again with her new girl friend. I was left at home caged in my CB3k. I knew they may be coming back to our house and I was not to be seen or heard. The feeling I was having was a little bit of jealousy but that was outweighed by how excited I was, knowing that she was with someone else.
For the first time since we have been together I slept alone, with my Mistress upstairs in another bedroom with someone else. It was hard to sleep but still I was at peace.
Sunday night was a repeat of Friday. She went out without me with her new girlfriend and I knew they would come back home again and that the same rules would apply to me. It felt right to be in this position knowing that for a short while I was un-important to her. That her true focus was on someone other than me.
I have accepted the fact that there are some things I cannot give her. My love and submission to her is so deep that I want her to have the things I cannot give her. When doubt enters my mind about those things I know she loves me and that I am the one she will return to, no matter how much she cares for another person.
Even with all the late night Mistress had that week, she had certain energy about her. She was more dominant in the way she dealt with me and seemed more alive. i enjoyed it all very much.
The second night she was with her new friend was a night we regularly meet with other friends at a local pub. I went there alone and met with our friends until Mistress showed up. When she did she brought her friend and sat with her back turned to me, like I was not even there. Her focus was on her new friend. I was excited to see her with someone else in front of our friends and with the way she was humiliating me in front of them.
I left before Mistress left and went home alone. My head was buzzing almost in subspace. When Mistress did come home she had little to say except she enjoyed being out. That night I was edged and denied release. I was allowed to make her cum with my mouth. She came harder than usual. I knew she was not thinking about me. It made me feel like the sub cuck I am, humiliated yet turned on.
On Friday night she went out again with her new girl friend. I was left at home caged in my CB3k. I knew they may be coming back to our house and I was not to be seen or heard. The feeling I was having was a little bit of jealousy but that was outweighed by how excited I was, knowing that she was with someone else.
For the first time since we have been together I slept alone, with my Mistress upstairs in another bedroom with someone else. It was hard to sleep but still I was at peace.
Sunday night was a repeat of Friday. She went out without me with her new girlfriend and I knew they would come back home again and that the same rules would apply to me. It felt right to be in this position knowing that for a short while I was un-important to her. That her true focus was on someone other than me.
I have accepted the fact that there are some things I cannot give her. My love and submission to her is so deep that I want her to have the things I cannot give her. When doubt enters my mind about those things I know she loves me and that I am the one she will return to, no matter how much she cares for another person.
Even with all the late night Mistress had that week, she had certain energy about her. She was more dominant in the way she dealt with me and seemed more alive. i enjoyed it all very much.
