Fantasy

[jackooo]

So I could have my first post a bunch of made up crap, but I thought I would go honesty instead. Sorry if it's not entertaining reading.

I don't really want anyone else of fuck my wife. I'm easily jealous and often over protective. I have to watch myself with her male co-workers not to be an asshole towards them.

Maybe that's partly why the cuckold fantisies get so powerful for me.

One of the fantasies that we talk about in bed is a cock measuring contest, where she is the judge between me and three of my buddies. Whoever has the largest cock gets a blowjob. And it's never me.

While she is stroking my cock I also like to have her tell me about her wild college days and the different size cocks she has seen in her life. She was on the pill in college, but didn't like the weight gain, so we use condoms now. I ask he to tell me what sex was like on the pill back then.

We also talk about fantisies with her having sex with another women, often some girl she saw at the gym or whatever. Very hot.

I also like to think about her taking two cocks at once. Sometimes she'll suck on a dildo while I'm fucking her.

So, I know not all of you guys are really deep into the life, and just come here for release. What have you done and shared with the wife?

I've read the steps and the guides on how to make your wife cheat, nice reading, but I'm not into making it real. Or changing her in anyway actually. I like the toe in the water part, just slightly perverse. Spice up the bedroom. I certainly indulge her romantic fantasies to the fullest, and she indulges mine.

So am I alone here

 

[kevinsslave]

Anything to do with our private thoughts or actions is quite interesting to me. Some of your fantasies, I have thought myself. Particularly, the one where you have your wife tell you about prior lovers (and, a couple of straight vanilla guys I know are turned on by this). I have had this discussion with a couple of my woman in my life and it is a turn on.

The other is the 2 cocks at once. Never tried this, but, have thought of it often. Came close a couple times, but, in both instances, the other guy backed out (with my friends having a 3 some).

Absolutely nothing wrong with fantasizing and I understand the whole jealousy issue. It's a major wall and all I could tell you is that once it comes down, it really comes down.

I don't know what on this Forum is real and what is fantasy. I know that my experiences are real. Prior to engaging in them, I never read a book or guide on cuckolds or 3 somes or whatever. Since, I've read several and I think a lot of the stuff is bullshit. Personally, I find it hilarious that there are cucks who's wives are getting fucked high and low feel the need to talk about how there wives really love them and it's all about what wife wants. I think that's a crock. I think, certainly, the wife of a cuck can love her husband, but, it's certainly not a vanilla type, gee I can't live without you love. And, the biggest crock is that it's all about the woman. It's usually the guy's fantasy.

What I do think, though, is that fantasies are nice, but, why should they remain in out minds, why not try them, rather than be old and gray and wonder why we didn't. Life's just too short.

Look, I know that I'm primarily hedonistic (as is my wife and soon to be out of city lover). I also know that I'm a sex addict. I've known it for a long time. I've been having sex for 28 years. I've had sex with hundreds and hundreds of woman and probably 15 guys. I'm sure even some of my normal, hetero stories people would find hard to believe. I also know where my urges stem from. I came from a very chaotic family. Parents divorced early (each were married 4 times) and I moved from city to city and state to state most of my early life. I always was "the new kid" and always felt on the outside. It left me feeling very emotionally detached, at times, from humanity. Being the new kid meant always being teased when I arrived at a new school. Thus, when I hit my teen years, I really felt very little guilt about screwing another guy's woman or, even, that I was hurting a girl's emotions. Well, but the thing is, I did feel bad, deep down, and, maybe, that's why I, at times, feel little self respect. Also, I had to be very dependable and self sufficient from a young age. I always had to be strong (physically and emotionally) and I think a natural side effect was to crave submission. Also, I figured as the years passed, that I spent so much of my life in pain, why not spend the rest having pleasure. Finally, put everything together and you'll find that I don't respect social norms and customs.

My wife grew up with a very, very strict (some might say abusive) father who happened to be a racist. Not hard to figure out where her fascination with black guys comes from nor why she is so sexually free now. Kevin, her lover, was the product of a racially mixed marriage and grew up in a primarily white neighborhood. Kids called his mom a "nigger lover" to his face and, he, like me, grew up detached. Also, there were other issues with his parents that really leave me understanding why he is so dominant and why he has such a hard time showing emotions. Then, the cosmos alligned with all 3 of us, I think, truthfully, we're all sex addicts.

Now, early in my teens, I knew I had some strange attraction to certain (very few) males and a particular type of woman (thin, great looking-model pretty). I made decisions regarding participating in certain sexual behavior. Maybe, those decisions were easy for me because I was a sex addict. Maybe, because of those decisions, I became a sex addict. Who knows, it's like the chicken and the egg. All I do know is that life is very, very short and it's over in the blink of an eye. We might as well enjoy it and, to use a football analogy, make sure you leave everything on the field.

On the other hand, I have some bizarre sense of ethics and morality and am absolutely hard on everyone around me when they fuck up. I, actually, invest much of my life and energy in helping others out of terrible problems and I would never, ever cheat someone out of money or lie. Yet, I have had no problem cheating on most of my women through the years.

Nothing wrong with getting your toe wet. It's more than most people do. Most people repress their fantasies and grow bitter with life. Sometimes, I think I've gone way too far with my choices. On the other hand, if you've read any of my posts, you know I have an unbelievable foot fetish. An all time fantasy of mine was to spend my life just being a gorgeous woman's foot slave. It's just fantasy. In reality, after an hour (or at most 2), I'm tired of kissing feet. I could never do it for a day, let alone a week or a month. Truth be told, sometimes (actually, more often than you'd think) I get tired of the whole crazy sex life and, during those periods, will spend much of my free time listening to my favorite music, watching old movies and reading books. In fact, tonight, I blew off Sheila and her feet and, instead, came home and watched Once Upon A Time in America. The odd thing in my life has been that every woman ever in my life (even this one) will always be there tomorrow. Woman just keep staying around me and have for most of my life. And, without exception, they all let me get away with just about everything wrong I've ever done. I don't get it, but, it's true.

In the end, we all have to do what's best for us. You're lucky, you're with a woman you love and your romantic and sexual lives are, as you say, spiced up by these little fantasies. That's fantastic. If you ever desire more, go for it. But, personally, I think where you're at is great.

 

[kevinsslave]

Incidentally, one thing I really admire about some homosexuals is their willingness to throw caution to the wind and try just about anything. Don't believe me, spend some time in Atlanta (Hotlanta, baby) or San Fransisco. It's as if they decided at some point that they are going to really enjoy their lives and do whatever they want to make up for having spent so much of their lives living in denial and/or guilt and repressing their true sexuality or true sexual feelings.

 

[Susan's Slave]

Enjoy where you are at. No particular lifestyle is right for everyone and you should not feel wrong or, for that matter, better about having the fantasy or living the fantasy.

I agree with Kevinsslave that for me life would be boring if I did not explore new things. I am also a risk taker and I have to push the limits now and then. In this arena I risk the possibility of losing my wife (who I truly love with all my heart) either to a new lover or over her feelings of contempt for these fantasies/realities.

Only you and your wife can decide what works for you. This forum is for all of us, wannabees, toe dippers, hot wives, swappers, cucks, bulls, doms, subs, sissies, etc.

 

[Saraha]

jackooo, fantasize/tease/encourage your wife into taking another woman into her arms on a permanent basis. That will stop the jealousy thing, and she will probably then be more adventurist in bed as well. Could you explore your feelings and allow her that gift?

 

[Mistress Kassandra]

Another option to consider is her being submissive to you. Maybe you're just a Bull at heart? This doesn't mean that you can't have other Bulls have sex with her as well. Tacking that onto Saraha's advice, you could have multiple women serving you (if you played your cards right).

Then, the secondary women could be the ones that you share with other men until such time that you feel comfortable with sharing your wife.

~MK

 

[I created a Monster]

Well what you described is how we started out.


When we were first married I was very jealous and protective of my wife and I think it realy scared her how jealous I actually was.She had a much older boss that would flirt with her and I would always get pissed about it.At one point she told me that he would hug her and kiss her cheek and I went thru the roof and ended up confronting the guy about it.( Only to find out years later after I "calmed down" a bit that she was fucking his brains out)

Back then we would lay in bed and I would quiz her about her previous men because I knew she had been involved with a black guy.I was what some would call a racist and she thought I was putting her down with the questions but in reality the thougth of thick black cocks in her sweet pussy and mouth was a huge turn on for me.

We were both raied very religeous and at one time were ourselves untill we "went astray". We would lay in bed at night and talk about our fantisies that invloved 3 somes and or her getting plowed by other guys be it friends or complete strangers.By this time in our life we were both more open about our past and would tell each other the truth about what we had done.

All of that led to her dressing more sexy and her flirting when we would go out,to her dancing with others to me setting her up for what at the time I thought was her first "other" cock since we got married,and now we are where we are today.


if you think for a second that you are not cut out for the wife sharing lifestyle I would not push anyone to do it.It's not for everyone.I think your fantisies and feelings are normal and what you choose to do with them are up to you.I for one would rather you be up front and honest with what you post rather than be like some are and just make up stuff to get you off.