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Denial of affection; A telling inspired by life

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The following I decided to post because I seem to have projected myself as anti-cuckolding. I am not anti-cuckolding, but events in my life have taught me how important some things we take for granted are when we chase our fantasies.
This isn't a cuckolding fetish story, but elements are shared between the two, but removed from the sexual contexts that this forum represents.
It is inspired by true events and the principle is true, but the story line is fiction to protect identities and because I have difficulties dealing with what happened some times.

A few years ago, my dad was dying from cancer. There was nothing that could be done to save him and it was a matter of time. I was also having deep relationship issues. Matters of intimacy and just starting a family together with my fiancé. We already had two kids, but there was always conflicts over moving together. When and where, not if.
I was working hard at the time and sending money to my parents to help. Around Christmass, a couple of big bills came in and they almost lost the house. It meant I had to cancel plans for seeing my fiancé and kids that year. She was pissed off.
The following summer, it was time to fly to my dad's bed side. My fiancé blew up in my face, demanding I do not go, issuing an ultimatum. If I went to see my dad, she would leave me. We fought and I though she backed down. On the day at the airport in Atlanta, she told me via sms to fuck off right before I boarded the plane. I tried to get her to retract what she said; I took it to mean she reissued the ultimatum. She never replied.
At the hospital, my dad laid there, frail, thin and weak. Years of drinking took a toll on his kidneys and now cancer was finishing him off. My mom and dad never really were affectionate with each other. I remember the fights. The screaming would keep me up. I always wondered why she didn't divorce him.
But there she was now, by his side, holding his hand. He didn't want to die alone and my mom wasn't the type to say anyone deserved to die alone nor allow it. He was different, entering the maw of death. They didn't fight.
Outside of the hospital room, I talked with my mom. She said dad didn't deserve a single bit of compassion or affection. But she wouldn't leave him anyways. But she told me, that while he laid there one day, he reached up and gently carressed her face. This brought her to tears, because this was the first compassion he has shown her that she can remember. He never took her to movies and rarely to dinner. He just wasn't the type. Yet, on his way out, he showed her something she hasn't seen most of her life; affection. This is something they denied each other for decades and made them both bitter.
He died a couple of weeks later. It ended 60 years of a very sad story of very little love. But I always wonder, what kept her by his bed side if she hated him so?They hurt each other s o often, yet still...
 
Those are the formative events on my views of affection and love and through that prism I look at cuckolding and at the extreme ends of cuckolding, I remember my parents. Denied to each other even simple affection, that is how they ended and that is how I fear some here will end to varied degrees. Lusting not after sex, but a carress of the hand on the face. A hand to hold. Company at the end of the road.

Like I said, I do have my own fantasies and can see the turn on in cuckolding, but I can never let them come at the price that my parents paid and feel sad for those who did pay that price.

I hope everyone does find their own happiness.
 
The Internet and television have been breaking down barriers, and re-establishing the female gender as the Head of the House. Women have the capacity for an enormous amount of sex, and the truth is that depression is a powerful problem caused by modern lifestyle.

It is incredibly important that all women have maximal chances for excellent sexual expression so as to stamp out depression. A healthy sex life with frequent orgasms can enhance a wife's enjoyment of her marriage - and no husband should hold back on offering her sex top-ups with Bulls of her choice.

50% of wives reach for the only weapon they have for an unsatisfactory sex life - they reach for divorce, then select a new cock after doing the dating scene for awhile.

Cuckoldry allows a wife to pick a hotter cock, and avoid the unnecessary stresses of divorce which hurt children so much. Then the wife can tease her husband and let him enjoy "watching a real man in action". From there, the wife can change her Bulls and give her husband more examples of what she is needing in her life, to achieve a wonderful marriage.
A man's sex drive falls steadily throughout his life, so as to allow younger, fitter and genetically superior seed to be planted to maximise the survival of the human race.
 
Thank you for your, unique view, on the marriage between my mom and dad. But the point was two fold. I had been asked by a few people to share a bit about myself here and I wanted to put the denial of affection into a light highlighting the painfull, joyless possibilities. People here have talked about their wives denying them everything, and most responses give away errections the size of...almost forgot what site I am writing on. No one considers the pain and loneliness some cucks must feel.
 
There have been cuckolds for thousands of years, and it seems just as important as ever for thousands of couples.

Some of the wild dogs roam in family packs of 30, but only 2-3 most powerful and cunning are allowed to do the breeding. The other dogs are just "reserves of nature" in case the stronger dogs were accidentally killed.

The "survival of the fitness" instinct in men exists, but religion decided to allow all men to have a woman to marry, not just the strongest. The "adultery clause" was hammered into men and women to make them too scared of the consequences, but with divorce becoming easier to obtain, marriages started breaking up quickly, indicating that it is exceptionally hard for two people to live an entire life together.

If God had intended humans to be different to animals, then SHE would have given men high testosterone ALL THEIR LIVES, not for only 10 years.
 
Anglebaby,

Thanks for the insight on what drives you and shapes your perspective on relationships. It sounds as if you had a less than desirable family life growing up and for that I am truly sorry.

Cuckolding is a dangerous game to play, perhaps that is why so many men fantasize about it. I have to agree, that losing the affection would be a devastating thing in any relationship let alone a cuckolding one, but let us remember that what you or I perceive as lack of affection might be exactly what another person needs to find fulfillment.

Life is not black and white, it is not even shades of grey... it is full of vibrant and unique colors and those colors are constantly shifting and changing hues. If they didn't, life would be so very boring!
 
newsub4a: You are right, through and through. But as the only child, I felt every bit of pain either of them felt.
I really wish the subject in general was talked about more. I suffer the same right now, outside of cuckolding.
 
I think the reason your mother stayed with your father had to do with commitment. It was a more powerful thing in our parent's and grandparent's day (depending on your age). One has to wonder what their marriage was like in the early days and why it he became so unaffectionate.

Your wife's response was unfortunate and disturbing. I would be interested in hearing about where your relationship went from there, and how you ended up as bitter as you seem now. I hope you are beginning to find happiness again.
 
The following summer, it was time to fly to my dad's bed side. My fiancé blew up in my face, demanding I do not go, issuing an ultimatum. If I went to see my dad, she would leave me. We fought and I though she backed down. On the day at the airport in Atlanta, she told me via sms to fuck off right before I boarded the plane. I tried to get her to retract what she said; I took it to mean she reissued the ultimatum. She never replied.

Hi, Angle. Forgive me if what I say sounds hurtful, I do not mean it to be. I hope that this woman is no longer your fiance or, alternatively, that she has genuinely apologized for her actions. I know it's not really the point of your post, but, this really bothers me. Whether your dad was a good dad or bad dad, he was still your father. To have a partner try to make you choose between staying with the partner or going to a parent's death bed is reprehensible. I would have given her my own ultimatum, which is "get the fuck out of my life." Her actions and words were extremely selfish and uncaring. If she loved you, how could she do that to you at such an emotionally difficult time?

But I always wonder, what kept her by his bed side if she hated him so?They hurt each other s o often, yet still...

Probably a sense of obligation and love. To spend 60 years with someone (even someone unfeeling or uncaring) is remarkable. There must have been some good times. Even still, your mother should be proud of herself for, despite his obvious failings, your father certainly didn't wish to die alone and with no one by his side. And, at that point, I'm sure he did have regrets for a lifetime of mistakes, but, what to do about it in so short a time? As you say, perhaps all that he could do or hope for (to erase a lifetime of regret) was:

but a carress of the hand on the face. A hand to hold. Company at the end of the road.

Perhaps, some cucks do feel this way. Alone, unloved, etc. Those people do need professional help for it is no way to go through life. Every single human life has worth and we should all realize it. Most importantly, they need to realize it. Experiencing this lifestyle, for me, was almost a lark, something I wanted to find out about. I did and found that the fantasy is far better than the reality.
 
"Affection" so desired by all and given by so few. Women, in the USA, at least have achived positions of respect. Many women now make more money than their husbands and have achived the head of household status. Superior women. Women are more affectionate than most men, but sissy men are just as desiring of affection as women. Men have been trained to not show emotion, and what is affection if not demonstrating emotion.

Now I have a hard time connecting this to cuckolding, but I am sure it plays a part in making each of us what we are.
"It meant I had to cancel plans for seeing my fiancé and kids that year. She was pissed off"
Now why did we not learn our lesson right then an there. I have suffered many years
 

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