This is my first day here and I'm really kind of nervous but a friend of mine told me that posting my story here might help me work through what I'm going through...
My younger girlfriend (she is 21) took a trip to California (we live on the east coast) this past May with a girlfriend of hers. Right before they left, her friend had broken up with her boyfriend of about 2 or 3 months so I'm sure her friend was probably free and on the rebound while they were out there...and I'm sure my gf probably ended up playing her 'wingman'.
The only thing is I found emails on her laptop when she got back (yes...I was snooping I will admit it) between her and a guy she met out there. He is black and my gf is white. When I first read the emails I felt like someone kicked me in the teeth and I was SO angry that she was even talking to this guy. They never just came out and said in the emails that they did anything...but it's pretty implied in certain portions of their emails. She tells him things like 'What we had while I was out there was so fuckin' fun!'
As time has gone on I'm kind of finding myself turned on by what she may have done. I'm running into 2 problems however. One problem is I can't talk to her about it because it will be pretty obvious I was snooping in her computer then and she will just get angry.
The other problem is she hasn't had sex with me since she got back from Cali. We used to have sex like once or twice a week at least and now it's just nothing. I'm going a bit crazy! LOL Part of me thinks the reason any of this actually turns me on is because I'm so sexually pent up right now.
I don't know what I'm even asking exactly...maybe I'm just looking for any advice anyone would be willing to give or stories of anyone who might have ever been or are in my situation.
My younger girlfriend (she is 21) took a trip to California (we live on the east coast) this past May with a girlfriend of hers. Right before they left, her friend had broken up with her boyfriend of about 2 or 3 months so I'm sure her friend was probably free and on the rebound while they were out there...and I'm sure my gf probably ended up playing her 'wingman'.
The only thing is I found emails on her laptop when she got back (yes...I was snooping I will admit it) between her and a guy she met out there. He is black and my gf is white. When I first read the emails I felt like someone kicked me in the teeth and I was SO angry that she was even talking to this guy. They never just came out and said in the emails that they did anything...but it's pretty implied in certain portions of their emails. She tells him things like 'What we had while I was out there was so fuckin' fun!'
As time has gone on I'm kind of finding myself turned on by what she may have done. I'm running into 2 problems however. One problem is I can't talk to her about it because it will be pretty obvious I was snooping in her computer then and she will just get angry.
The other problem is she hasn't had sex with me since she got back from Cali. We used to have sex like once or twice a week at least and now it's just nothing. I'm going a bit crazy! LOL Part of me thinks the reason any of this actually turns me on is because I'm so sexually pent up right now.
I don't know what I'm even asking exactly...maybe I'm just looking for any advice anyone would be willing to give or stories of anyone who might have ever been or are in my situation.